"We are in TRACK,"

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Allahumma solli ‘ala Muhammad wa ‘ala ali Muhammad.

27.10.2016

Muqaddimah (before today’s consultation)

“Fatimah, harini birthday nenek…”

“Atom, bye!.... (Assalamu’alaikum, bye)”

*tak faham nampaknya*, still, I am the desperate one to talk with her, rindu…

“Kakak, jangan letak… Acik nak cakap dengan kakak!~” , and it always ended like that. Redha jelaaa.

“After you dah betulkan questionnaires ni, make a copy for me, then you can proceed with your Pilot Test,”

*Ya Allah, is it true??*

Alhamdulillah, mungkin berkatnya hari ni, bersamaan dengan birthday mak, walaupun tak dapat cakap panjang dengan mak, sebab mak tengah masak.

Dan juga berkatnya hujan lebat,

Questionnaires kami passed, Alhamdulillah!

Tergamam, teruja, gembira dan…. Ya Allah, thank you!

“Bila due date hantar report ya?”

“19 Disember, Madam…”

“Ok… we are in track,” (*'in' ke 'on' track?)

Pernah tengok tak kucing invisible dalam cerita Alice in Wonderland tu?? Macamana senyum lebar kucing tu buat? Yes, that one the best describing kitorang punya state time tu…. Lega yang amat! Sebab, sempat merasai kebuntuan,

“nak construct macamana lagi questionnaire kita ni?”

“takde apa lagi boleh dikeluarkan dari LR kita ni,”

“hmmmm….”, sampai ketiduran lah dalam surau FSR tu, kan Syafiqah? Hehe.

And… eventually, Alhamdulillah, me and my partner can to prove that we able to consult on questionnaire for only TWICE!

*hmm, sebab kami tak sanggup dengar rakan-rakan seperjuangan kami ada yang sampai empat (4) kali consultation dengan supervisor utk come out with the right and satisfied one. Sebab kami merasakan kami agak lewat berbanding researchers lain on research progress, lebih-lebih lagi melihatkan project time-line yang bertampal di dinding tempat I buat kerja selalu.

Madam Yus (mine and my partner’s supervisor) pesan, 

“buat apa you terkejar-kejar nak buat pilot test, if at the end, you found that questionnaire you tak reliable and valid?”

Kitorang hope sangat-sangat can come out with the best findings for our research. Siapa tidak mahu, kan? Jadi, doakan kami ya!

-STRIVE FOR EXCELLENT-

Contact me through, smardianams.94@gmail.com for any help, k :)

*Last week, nak jumpa juga SV punya pasal, alhamdulillah, dapat juga show the first constructed questionnaires. Dalam 7.15p.m. done consultation on that day, 20.10.2016 (Thursday)

*Before gerak ke bilik supervisor kami. Hujan lebat. Petir yang kuat dan bertalu-talu.

 Balik rumah sewa, and still with the good mood, Alhamdulillah~

*Orang kata, perempuan yg pakai tudung bawal lebih ayu. Haha, just kidding!

*Comel sangat! Inspiring smile :D

Pemikiran Aras Tinggi

@IKIM.fm; Pesona D'Zahra
10.10.2016

1. sentiasa ada cadangan, wawasan, penyelesaian.
2. sifat kepekaan; xperlu disebut, dia tahu. eg. bangun tidur, tau nak buat apa. Ada inisiatif, walaupun bukan bidangnya. Rasa tanggungjawab.
3. Jadilah imam, bukan makmum. Bukan pada merebut jawatan, tapi, kpd kepekaan, level pemikiran pemimpin; cari, rancang & usaha kepada kebaikan. Tiada komen yg meruntuhkan, iaitu komen yang membangun. selayaknya sbg khalifah di muka bumi.
4. tak jatuh kpd menyalahkan org, mngeluh. tp, fikir "apa & macamana nak buat". semua yg berlaku ada hikmahnya. jgn macam cerita tikus nak gantung loceng kat leher.
5. falsafah hidup (anak2); jangan bagi anak2 dpt falsafah hidup dpd kawan2. ikatlah ilmu dgn menulis, sesungguhnya sekabur-kabur tulisan, sekuat-kuat ingatan.

oleh Ustaz Muhammad bin Abdullah.

Cherishing Semester Six! AM228 BAS

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Allahumma solli 'ala Muhammad wa' ala ali Muhammad.

25.09.2016
With this opportunity, I would like to wish, again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, to my deary, bestfriend Nurul Syafiqah Binti Abdul Rahim. May Allah bless her dun'ya wal akhirah.

*Syafiqah has reached 22 years old, Alhamdulillah!

*Bagaimana untukku memulakan post ini??*

1. Syukur Alhamdulillah

Menghadiri lecture sessions pada minggu ini, ana terasa sungguh relieved. 'Relieved' not in term of assignments or whatever task. But, the reality of the knowledge that I will be taught. Thanks to all my lecturers that give me beautiful first impression to the courses that I, and my friends will be faced.

2. Lebur

Yup... Surprisingly, ana tak sangka, ego ana terhadap my stand, "Tak nak sambung Master directly after graduate degree" dan juga, "Tak rasa nak put my effort to be PTD (Pegawai Tadbir Diplomatik", seolah-olah melebur dalam hati ana. Yes... this is because I realize about the miracle of knowledge (that Allah has created, Allahu zaljalalah). Knowledge is almost everything for me. It taught me to be rationale, even tough I'm not as rational as a good leader (not yet might be).

3. The Awesome Courses (refer: http://smardianams.blogspot.my/2016/09/i-envy-their-performance-of-getting.html)

I did not know why the courses in this sem make me feel how reasonable those subjects in this course. Sampai fikir, "kenapalah baru sem ni baru nak introduce subjek-subjek ni?". But not stop at that. I continued to think about it. Ana cuba fahamkan dan selarikan dengan apa yang disampaikan oleh mentioned lecturers before.

Mungkin... 

..sebab nak bagi sem 6 ni lebih fresh.

..sebab sem 6 ni lebih dekat dengan career, so that, bila dapat kerja tak ada lah awal sangat lupa apa yang telah dipelajari.

..subjek-subjek seperti Urban Sociology, Strategic Management in Public Sector, dan Seminar in Public Management memberi pendekatan kepada bekalan penting to be PTD. Use of critical thingking.

Namun, hakikatnya...

Kita tak perlu rasa subjek-subjek yang kita belajar sem-sem lepas as 'kurang penting'. Sebab tanpa subjek-subjek tu, mungkin kita akan lebih susah nak kaitkan subjek-subjek sem ni dengan kehidupan dan program ini (Bachelor in Administrative Science). Sebagai contoh, Public Relation, ICT, Public Finance, Local Government, Service Management, Ethics, dan yang lain. Benar?

Baiklah, setakat kesempatan ini.

Itu sahaja yang sempat kunukilkan.

Wallahu'alam.

Sekian, terima kasih.

Got to go~

*menyompek*

"Gambar hanyalah sesuatu yang kita inginkan... Its not really real. (Haha..)"

I Envy Their Performance of Getting Dean List

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Allahumma solli 'ala Muhammad wa 'ala ali muhammad.

22.09.2016

Hari ni will be the fourth day of kuliah on this last semester.
Experiences on practical training masih basah kat bibir-bibir most of Part 6 students.

Me?
So-so....

Selain sharing on practical training. Tidak terlepas pula oeluang utk bertanyakan berkenaan result masing-masing.
I thought tak ramai yg perform, but i'm mistaken.
Tahniah buat my fellows, Syafiqah, Fatin Amirah, Arab (*sorry sbb lmbat tau..), Saif, Hadi, Zaid, Zirul, Najah (*sorry jugak sbb tertinggal train, dpt tau Najah DL :'D) dll.
Ana mention nama mereka ni ada sebab paling rapat, rapat, amazed, and envied. Huhu. *Why can't I?*

I believe that they scored with their ultimate willing and effort.
And that what i witnessed, and heard from themselves. Again, i envy you guys. Thanks, because it might boost my motivation and let you all be my inspiration.
Sbb sem lepas bukan subjek yg senang-senang, especially research (test, proposal and spss) dan finance.

Yes. Have bygone already.
All we can do is for the future.
More effort, struggle and everything.
InsyaAllah, i, we, can do it!

Courses sem ni:
1. Strategic Management in Paublic Sector (STRAMAPS)
2. Seminar in Public Management
3. Practical Training Report
4. Research Paper
5. Urban Sociology
6. English Exit Test (EET)

Hopefully can get DL for this last sem...
dan mencantikkan CGPA dan GPA. Oh Allah.... Aamin

LAMPIRAN (ngehehe...):

My Best Study Group, My Ladies 

Theera, Fatin (DL), Arab (DL), Nabila, Waji, Syafiqah (DL) dan saya 

With Syafiqah, Saif and Hadi, discussion members

*Pinjam cermin mata Syafiqah. Macam cantik jerr*

The Tears, Sayounara

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Allahumma solli 'ala Muhammad wa 'ala ali Muhammad.

I can't forget the time my tears dropped just because of you.
I'm sorry that I'm losing you.
My bottle, used with name "Yu Acik", by my sweetie nephew, Fatimah Azzahra.

"You went so soon, so soon..."

Yup, dramatik.
Because i used to bring that bottle to almost everywhere I went.
That bottle, assist me to save money by not buying drinks when eat out.
I could hug whenever I wanted to.

Sedih tak terhingga.
Diselimuti rasa bersalah sebab botol tu asalnya kepunyaan kakak ana.
Ini kali kedua ana hilangkan botol air berwarna biru, besar, Tupperware.
Botol tu laa yang ajar dan ingatkan ana untuk minum air kosong everyday, without him, I have no feeling on air kosong. With him, ana sangat berselera nak minum...

Botol tu tercicir di surau Angsana, Johor Bahru waktu ana sekeluarga makan angin.
Perjalanan dari JB ke Pontian diharungi dengan air mata membanjiri... tersedu sedan.
Lebih-lebih lagi, ana sempat nampak botol tu terbaring...
memang ana teringatkan botol ana. Tapi, ana xpedulikan sebab kakak ana kata dia bawa botol tu...
Then, lepas tinggalkan angsana, ana recheck botol tu sebab kehausan, baru sedar botol tu dah tercicir mngkin semasa telekung dikeluarkan. Because my sister put that big bottle inside my mom's beg telekung.
And when i asked my mom, "Mak, mak solat kat line depan eh tadi?" then mak jawab, "Ha'ah..."
I really regret it... with question, " Kenapa saya tak terdetik nak belek awak, walau rasa nak kena buat muka tak malu lalu celah-celah manusia kat situ?"
Allah...

Salam terakhir, botol saya.
Sorry tak dapat bersama dengan awak lagi...
Tak dapat nak menikmati manfaat daripada awak lagi...
Tak dapat nak ambil gambar dengan awak lagi...
Tak dapat nk jadikan awak penghibur saya dengan Fatimah and Umar lagi.

Alhamdulillah, mungkin itu airmata redha... air mata yang sedang dalam proses nak hadirkan redha dengan takdir itu.

Thanks kat lagu Maher Zain yang dimainkan IKIM.fm sewaktu ana sedang banjir itu.
"You went so soon, so soon.
I have to MOVE ON..."
-So Soon_Maher Zain-
Lagu ni bantu tenteramkan hati ana yang tengah longlai tu.
It will be my favorite song since that incident, thought.

*Gambar ana berbaju hijau, antara gambar terakhir bersama Yu Achik :')

(Yup, that is the small me. Alhamdulillah, gratefulness...)